Shoelaces=love

This is love:

I was bawling on the phone. Very rarely do I allow tears to invade my conversations, but I'm was too much of a mess to worry about holding down floodgates these days.
So I was missing a meeting, missing a dinner and missing my mom and apologizing to Shawn for slamming the door on him this morning over something he was probably right about, and I burst into tears.
I was crying about everything, and things I don't even want to talk about. He and molly were on speakerphone with me and I was weeping my heart out because of things Molly might have half-understood.

And then a while later, Shawn shows up at my door with an "emo care package", full of chocolate (because it's chocolate), shoelaces (because I'm emo), shampoo (because...I'm greasy?) and corn (because I am a vegitarian).

And my head hurts from crying, and I don't feel much better, but I feel loved.
And I'm glad this conversation happened, because I could have never had it by myself:

MOLLY <> says:
after we got off the phone with you
MOLLY <> says:
i was like "she really loves you shawn, you know"
Caitlyn.. it's only a matter of life or death says:
what did he say?
MOLLY <> says:
he asked me why i think that
Caitlyn.. it's only a matter of life or death says:
what did you say?
MOLLY <> says:
i said "i think she thinks of you as the father she's never really had"
Caitlyn.. it's only a matter of life or death says:
then what?
Caitlyn.. it's only a matter of life or death says:
(I could never say these words)
MOLLY <> says:
he got really happy